Visiting family...

These week I traveled several hours away to visit my grandmother who I have not seen in several months. She has deteriorated mentally in a very significant way since we last saw her. This was a bit of a shock to me because she has always been as sharp as a tack. On this particular visit she had no recollection of who I was. I will admit that this was a tough pill to swallow and I almost regret having visited her. It would be nicer to remember as she was when all of her mental faculties were intact. People tell me that I would have regretted not visiting her if something were to happen to her in the coming months but it is hard to say right now if that is true. I am just sad at the realization that we will never sit and talk as we once did because she simply cannot fathom who I am...at least prior to this visit my last memory would have been of those conversations rather than her looking at me with a blank expression and wondering who the strange man in her house was.